Im Not Stupid too.. Am I or am i Not?

Wen i was young, i was the like most hopeless one in the family.. Failing non-stop since i was in Kindergaten.. Well even if i did pass, it wasnt fantastic... It was always not up to expectations.. I was canned for using my left hand to write..

Everyday i had to sit and practice writing wif my right hand but in e end i wrote wif my left hand.. haha.. After tat i was in well a neighbourhood sch tat well was later quite well known.. i was in P1.11 in Primary 1, 2.11, 3.11, and 4.11. I was always in the 11th class from Primary 1 till 4..

In Primary 4, it was my streaming year. It would mean i could choose to go EM1, EM2, and EM3.. We would get a result slip saying which EM we would go to as in our recommended EM by the school.. For obvious reasons i couldnt get to EM1.. EM2 was the best i could go to..

My mum picked EM3 for me and i remained in EM3.. i was quite comfy there.. i was amongest one of the smartest in EM3 and i topped the class in ENG onli.. maths was climbing and other subjects were gd..

I was very happy wif my escalating results but had to tell myself tat i shld be getting such marks cos im in EM3 and i shld do better.. I was class monitor and i had everything coming to me.. it was the time of my life i guess.. haha

In P5, I was in 5.12 and P6 6.12.. and was the monitor for 2 yrs running.. haha.. Later the PSLE came.. and i had to pick my 6 schools.. First choice was Ngee Ann, and i cant really remember.. However wen i had to pick my school's everyone in the family was mocking at me..

My mum was wif me however she didnt make the choice for me.. she said " choose wisely and make sure u don regret" and well tats wat i did... amidst all the mockery i wen thru, i still wen ahead wif it.. i didnt care.. it was either i land into somewhere where i would be a devious shittifyin gangster or land somewhere i can study and be an angel to some extend..

Eventually the much awaited day came.. the new announced that the PSLE results would be released wen and wat time.. so i wen to sch.. i still remember all the kids had their parents wif them to share the joy wif them.. I was one of the few who didnt have my parent wif me..

I took my results and my friends who said wanted to go out wen out else where wif others.. I wen to buy some stuff to eat and of course i bought for KC too.. he was there to share my joy wif me.. I remembered wen i left, i said " KC give kor kor gd luck k? tat i get gd grades" i thank God for tat too..

Wen i got my results i was happen.. i had a 1 for Eng, 2 for Maths and 3 for Chinese.. guess the hard work didnt go to waste.. Later we were told to go back another day to get our results for our enrolment for our secondary sch.. tat was another battle wont.. I returned to the sch on the specified date.. and i got the sch i wanted.. Ngee Ann Secondary.. haha

Wen i got my results i wen to find my other teachers and one of e teachers well he wasnt teaching me but he was nice.. he was Mr Poon.. nice person.. he congratulated me.. haha and well i shared the joy wif everyone and well my mum was hapy for me and i believe she was proud of me ba..

Hmm after my Secondary education, i wen in to my much wanted COS (Certificate in Office Skills/Studies) and it was a yr.. everyone headed for 2yr couses and mine was a risk taking course.. meaning if i failed i had to enter NS..

Later i managed to enter for my Higher NITEC in Business Admins where i am now.. and im thankful..

U would be wondering y im writting all tis.. well last night i was watching "I Not Stupid Too" and the story was so realistic its like u can understand and feel the character especially the kids.. i mean how they are treated by their parents..

There were too busy for their kids and all they tot is tat by scolding the kids and canning them, it would solved the problem however they fail to understand that its the bonding tat isnt there and tats wat the kids needs...

Some are brought up in a violent family environment.. some have burning questions like where do babies come frm and yet the answer they get is “u will find out wen u grow up" and when they make a mistake, they get scolded and canned..

In our pragmatic Singapore, tats life the way of life.. I mean of course the part where wen parents scold, we can jus sit and shut up.. I mean now most of us would jus voice out cos we arent in the wrong..

We the adults scold us, we have to shut up and wen we talk, we get scolded for opening and wen we tell the truth, we get scolded for lying.. Tats was how i was brought up wen i was very young however later i voiced out..

I was and still am an intervant but many a times i behave like an extrovant to cover my dark side.. Hmm yday wen i was watching the movie, there were scenes where i wanted to cry cos it was touching but then thinking of the family i have , its like crying wont work cos its isnt happening to my family..

The family i once had, died wen my parents got divorced.. nothing new to me.. its kinda numb.. though my house isnt tat dead but well to some extend, sometimes my mother doesnt really talk to me unless she wants to talk to me.. wen she is at work she'd talk to me wen she is at home im a pest to her..

Guess tats life in singapore for a typical family.. hmm funny.. sometimes i wonder how come we cant get wat we wan.. i mean asidfe from monetary stuff, y not e family love we all want? y cant things be perfect?

haiz dunno lah..

AFter so long.

Came back from Brunei on the 2nd of Jan at night.. Touch dwn was at 2305hrs.. Flt was bumpy well kinda smooth but accended to 39,000ft and could tell the plane was climbing.. Half way thru flight, had migraine...

During meal service, our meal was Fish wif rice.. was not bad lah but well i was at the back so was offered onli fish wif rice. But the inflight meal for tat day was Chicken wif rice or something but it was out of stock so yea..

Took the cutleries out.. haha well took onli mine out lah.. Touch dwn was quite smooth but took quite sometimes to condicent cos of the altitude.. finally landed to Singapore.. i mean as much as i wanted to not go to brunei, being there, did make me treasure some things in life..

Like sitting together as a family having dinner or watever.. its really nice.. But sometimes the things they do can really put u off.. plus while i was there, i was kinda having migrains, slight fever and all.. its was really annoying.. Thus far i think tis is my worst trip..

No more have a kor kor le.. Well lots of problems happened in singapore while i was in brunei.. Was trying hard to salvage.. Wanted to come back so much.. Wen i finally did, well i now have a kor but not tat kor lah.. so yea..

Hmm so funny how humans are sometimes.. Came back and was sick.. was on 2 days mc.. tried to settle my stuff. but well haiz ok ok lah.. My bday was kinda like approaching and my kor smsed me saying tat he put $30 bucks for my bday but i had to take a cab back home and then to Copturn Hotel or something like tat.. Cos i was goin to Genting for my bday..

I mean it was Friday and my lessons ended at 1215 but i left at 12 so i rushed lor.. he took a cab to fetch me.. and later after tat, we headed to the hotel to take the bus tat brought us to Senai Airport where we took MH1068 to KL.. plane was a B734 so small and yet fuller.. terrible..

Made friend wif tis steward.. very nice person.. haha fast 30min flt.. so yea.. Wen we reached, we searched for a cab.. i mean its like for the first time i feel like a real backpacker and all to my well thx to my god-kor lah.. the experience was new and enriching..

We finally found a cabby.. so yea.. drive was kinda ok ok lah weather was raining and all well wasnt sunny and all.. i mean i dunno y pple tell me tat Genting is so nice and blah blah blah.. Cos when we reached there, i was kinda shocked cos the lobby was very china (chinese is malay) and the rooms had no bath tub and all.. its was like tis corner for toilet shower and another fro toilet bowl.. and no fridge and aircon..

I guess bcos of the weather we didnt need the aircon but then the much needed fridge wasnt there.. well jus had to made do wif it.. The last few days jus wen along and it was fun.. Lets jus say being wif one of those special to u is nice lor..

Trip finally ended and back to sch.. Study stress and all.. Aside frm all tis schooling and home work and all, still have Chinese New Year to prepare for..

Seriously its indeed been a long time and i wan to clear tis backlogged blog before i start wif my daily logs.. hmm I still have lotsa stuff to do.. POM project, NYAA report.. my IPark report and presentation and my IOC report..

haiz stress man.. Finally chinese new yr well not tat its over but the important days are over.. Jus a short time frame of a month, lotsa stuff has happened.. well i had my KL trip as my bday gift frm my godbro and then after tat Charlene got married, after tat Papa got married.. well his was a small reception at his place.. then there was Chinese new year and now im an uncle.. My nephew was given birth on the 30 of Jan i think morning..

Looks like my worst nightmare has come.. Well not tat im e uncle, i think ill be Uncle Handsome.. Hadi would be Uncle ROck Gani would be Uncle i dunno wat.. and for me ill be Uncle Handsome.. haha

Well looks like tat wraps up for my month of Jan and alll.. So fast and Feb is here.. so fast.. oh yea for my chinese new yr, papa gave me 25bucks onli.. i was cursing man.. well have been cursing since first dya of chinese new yr.. haha dunno y..

Think ill stop here do the rest like tomoro.. hehe toddles

Busy Week

Tis week was kinda like a busy week for me.. Wednesday, i wasnt sure y i came home late.. i think and Thursday and Friday, i was volunteering at Giving Tree @ North East.. The last time i was tis exhausted and all was wen i was at the IOC..

Got into a fight like tis week and i fainted and apparently wen i regained consiousness, my head was spinning so bad.. and i had migraine.. While i was unconsiousness, i had tis funny dream abt kor and i.. I dunno y.. Well i he says he wants to be my kor.. But there are somethings i wan to ask him but he never answers me..

I dunno y. Initially wen he was my kor kor, he was very nice.. i have to say it was sweet and nice to have a kor kor.. But then after sometime, he was very cold towards me especially wen he came back from Rockhampton..

The sweet time and goodness we had disappeared.. Its kinda depressing.. Everytime wen i log into his blog, wen i hear tat song and read abt his day and all, i dunno y i jus feel very depressed.. I nvr had a driving force till he came in and i dunno y i made him or used him as my driving force...

Sometimes i do find tat im very naive.. Believing pple so easily.. :( i dunno y.. haiz.. Right now, im using tis current volunteer project (Giving Tree @ North East) to avoid my depression.. But aside frm depression, have tis physical exhaustion.. :'(

I dunno how long i can take wif tis torture i have.. I mean im jus waiting for tat day wen he says he doesnt wan me as his didi.. He says he wants me as his didi.. But he doesnt well treat me like one.. i mean the occasional calls and spot checks etc.. let alone meet up..

He says he is busy and all tat he cant be wif his friends.. For the past few days, wen i read his blog, he is always out wif his friends.. but wats of the brother of his?? Neglected.. and he says no.. Wen i wan to tel him off, he jus ignores me.. seriously i dunno wat he wants yet alone wat he wan to do..

:'( i don really think of my kor.. well i do think of my kor but then wen i think of how he treats me, i do have my doubts.. and he never wants to assure and give me tat security he used to.. i dunno y..

Well enough of my frustration and all lah.. WEll i have been having a gd time volunteering i mean yes i have been using it to avoid my problems but thru the process, its fun.. I am now like promoted to Deputy Manager.. Have pple under me.. haha..

Have to like report an hr earlier and go home an hr later cos have debrief.. of course i too have to conduct debrief and briefing.. so yea.. wen i wake up in the morning, im like a zombie.. but everyone says i seem like i have ample slp.. haha..

I love my volunteering work.. kinda gd.. But of course u get suckers who are jus there for CCA points or CIPS points. Im there for Leaderships points too.. but wen i don bother abt the points wen i do my job so yea..

Yday was kinda soso.. had like my Junior's frm SC 3 of them were Deputy MaNagers.. then 4 others came.. 2 of them were ok.. but of the 2, 1 was asking how to be a deputy manager.. could see she was doin stuff ot be noticed to get promoted to be Deputy Manager..

As for the other 2, one was fill wif shitty attitude whilest the other followed like a dog.. Godness. really some of them are not suitable to be councillors.. Their working attitude sucks.. but well i jus hope i can change.. haha

Right now im like looking at emceeing.. haha.. large scale.. Then i miss my security.. plus its easy.. hehe.. and u can see odd pple who wanted to board the EpBus thinking tat there would be a bus trip.. haha.. wen there isnt..

The weather today is so nice.. hehe.. well but its depressing to not have one soyea.. Can say its my kor ba.. sometimes.. i really say screw brotherhood.. tat day wen kor send me tis sms, i asked how come suddenly so nice, he said its jus to let me know he remembers me.. But deep inside.. i wanted to ask.. Remember me as wat? ur brother? ur friend?? or wat? there are many things i wan to ask but he doesnt wan to tell me.. and its always my fault..

Marketing Sentosa??

Tis morning, i woke up at like hmm.. say 0930?? I made a lunch appt wif Sonia, my classmate cum project buddy.. hehe.. I tot i was late so i kinda rushed.. Later in the train, did i realised tat we agreed to meet at 1200... haha..

In any case, i was still kinda late.. haha by 5mins.. I forgot tat i didnt take my vitamins.. To add to the well in a way misery, i didnt have any case to store them.. Decided to grab one frm GNC on the way to meet sonia.. the thingy, cost like abt $2.60 or so lah.. so yea.. dashed off to meet her..

Finally reached.. Guess wat?? She cut her hair.. haha.. Well we later wen to order our food.. Wen we entered Mac, there were tis grp of girls, who were for some unknown reason, keep looking at me and smiling n giggling away.. Didnt really pay much attention to them... Went ahead to order our food...

While having our food, we discussed abt our POM Project, and the Christmas Tree Event at Tampines Central.. At the moment, im volunteering for days.. They are tis thursday and friday and next thursday and friday.. However, if i hit 8shifts, i would get some leadership points..

There for today, we sorta planned the other 4.. Later while eating, California Fitness sorta called and i rejected them.. Of course i did explain to them the bad experience i had tat time.. The person sorta assured me tat it wouldnt happen.. Kinda scaptical abt it.. but yea agreed to go..

Lugging Sonia along cos since we wanted to workout, it would be a gd chance.. so yea.. y not.. Well intend to cut my hair.. so in the morning would be kinda have a tight schedule.. Would go for our jog, then followed by hair cut, but on the way to sch, have to settle the electric bill.. Then after tat, off to California Fitness..

Managed to skip Charlie's Media Corp event.. kinda feel very bad.. but i have no choice.. haiz.... IN any case, both of us headed to sch and attended lesson.. During POM, we wen to see Ms Lee and spoke to her abt out our topic..

Our topic is on Marketing Sentosa as in boosting its tourism numbers and all.. Lots of factors to pay attention too.. At the same time, im also trying to have a better grasp of Marketing as a whole.. still kinda wabbly..

During our short break, we wen to see Ms Lee and before we could start, she ranted abt our grouping.. So we said tat it was abt our topic.. So yea we clearified our doubts.. Later after tat, we had Rajes's Lesson.. I tell u, im beginning to love Mdm Rajes given the fact tat she is strict..

Cos i could see her point of view and where she is driving from.. I really do feel blessed under her wing... Like a mother protecting a child.. Special feeling.. Well yea.. Her lesson was super interactive.. hehe..

After lesson, wen to my friend's place.. Well got some hmm tips?? Wif regards to my project.. So yea.. Well used the word Hypothesis.. hehe.. i dunno y im so gaga over tat word.. haha but i manged to know how to use it lah.. Tats wats most important..

Came home and was kinda tired.. And here i am.. Well chatted wif kor jus now.. Hmm i guess i dunno.. He isnt like giving me cold shoulder anymore?? But in any case, the last time, wen he went to rockhampton, he bought me some stuff.. I sorta placed them in tis hmm well corner of my drawer.. In a way, i guess if he really disowns me, the box would be either mailed to him or i meet him to return them to him..

Thinking of all tis, is kinda depression and seriously, very agonizing.. Signing up for tis Christmas Tree event at tampines, is sorta like to keep me away frm all tis.. In a way an excuse for me to avoid them?? Haiz dunno lah..

I somehow find it very ecentric.. Wen pple first get into a relationship, its so sweet and well very nice.. The feeling of being loved and all is there.. However, as time passes by, u feel like a tissue paper.. No more tat nice loving sweetness u used to have.. but the cold and ugly sight of everything haunts u.. Confusion confusion..

Its a whole theology i don think ill ever understand.. Though wif live experiences and all, pple say its sweet and all but i don seem to agree wif them.. I onli sit and envy pple who are happy.. while im always the one there to see and admire..

At tis point of time, anything can hapen though my options are all open, but im jus praying tat the dreadful day wouldnt come at all.. Cant afford to lose the driving force in me.. Hmm kinda late already.. toddles.. Cheerios.

Gone With The Winds

Tis morning, at abt 0330hrs, i was suppose to be at the Padang for my volunteer duty for the Standard Chartered Singapore Marathon (SCSM).. However, last night (Sat) things took for the turn. My plan was kinda screwed up..

My section leader smsed me saying tat the NightRider Service which i wanted well was suppose to take was not in service in lue of the road closure.. At that split second, i asked myself am i ready to forgo the free Adidas t-shirt i would be getting..

I asked myself. Well part of the reason was because im getting free adidas t-shirt and also to be part of tis well somewat "prestigious" event.. Happen to be talking to a friend.. Asked for opinion.. I was really caught in the middle.. Eventually, i came to a decision..

A very difficult one.. At the expense of the free t-shirt and all.. I didnt go.. Was also kinda tired so really i wasnt in a mood.. Frankly i noticed tat since i didnt go to church, i have been kinda depressed..

I tot tat friends are really tat important but i realised tat God was the one who has been there for me.. I remembered when KC was still alive, each and everytime i brought him out for a walk, i would talk to God like as if i was talk to myself in public..

However, thru the years, tat didnt happen.. Wen i did tat wen KC was life, i was alot more happier.. But i guess things wouldnt always go ur way.. I read kor's blog today.. Haiz.. He spends more time wif his friends rather then wif me.

I do wonder.. Y do u rather we have brothers for? I mean he is jus a godbro per say i dunno if he really treats me like his real younger bro as he claims cos he doesnt really seem to be well acting on his words..

Wen i ask him, he says i probe.. Many a times, im at the verge of well wanting to let go of tis brotherhood, my friends and everything i have got.. However, i have nvr had a "driving force" in my life aside for God..

Till recently.. Everyone who heard of my "driving force", wanted to know who it was.. And all got shocked wen i said it was my kor. For tat period of time, they could see happiness, joy and all in my.. However, till recently, things werent like tat..

I have to admit tat yes its kinda heart breaking.. Cos things wasnt like wat it used to be wen he first came into my life.. Seriously i do miss my kor alot.. And i really mean alot.. But reading it, i don think he seems to bother at all..

Contemplating... Tats wat im doin now.. Rite now in my life, everythig is a big question mark.. Minus the volunteering events tat i would be involved soon, i dunno wat else is there to do aside from my studies.. Kinda gay rite???

Well tats sherwin i gues.. Eminent in friendship but many a times i wonder.. y am i so foolish and naive.. There is tis song "Believe me" by Fort Minor.. Its really a song i used to motivate me.. Esp the chorus..

Yday, i smsed kor kor.. asking him if he wanted to go out.. He gave me a well somewat reasonable "excuse" and i took it.. Tis morning, i smsed him again.. NO reply.. wen i read his blog, i was seriously well somewat taken aback i gues..

Sad too.. kinda disappointed in a way.. If tats the way its goin to be, i don see a point.. But yet inside i cant let my "driving force" go jus like tat.. Its seriously very hard and its heart breaking.. Sometimes, id rather run away frm the whole matter then talk abt it..

I jus wish and feel like deleting the number let alone not bring my hp wif me.. but its something i cant.. U know, as im typing tis bloggy now, the wind outside is jus so nice and fresh.. though the curtains are closed, but the smell of the wind, its jus so uplifting..

I do sense the presence of God here wif me.. Let alone feel like crying i dunno y.. But i guess i jus have to haiz.. i dunno lah.. Seriously sometimes tis kor shit jus pisses the hell out of me.. maybe tats y sometimes i quite wiery of the pple arnd me??

Think ill jus end here lah.. i dunno wat to say anymore.. haiz.. :'(

My Week

Tis week has been kinda physically and mentally tiring.. I mean wow i mean though my time table is kinda go but see Monday i ended at 5 and tuesday at 4 and wednesday i still had tis SC meeting at 4 which lasted till abt 5.30 abt an hr lah.. Thursday and Friday i mean like yea i end at 1230 however, had to go to grab mummy's ipod nano and on friday, yday, wen to buy my stuff..

Yday, i wen to Beach Road to grab like 3 army towels and 1 black army bag.. haha.. kinda nice lah i mean i kinda didnt like the towel cos i guess i havent washed it, so it sorta had green stringy thingys ;dropping out.. si so yea..

I mean like really tis week was very tiring.. i dunno y i feel so tired.. aside from all tis exhaustion and stuff, friends well esp Sonia, she noticed tat i was like very down. I mean she noticed tat i was very down.. Silent and wen im alone, she could see sadness on my face..

Not even my kor could do something like tat and well she is really a friend.. Speaking of my kor, well i did have a feeling that he doesnt wan me as a didi.. plus all tis cold treatment he is giving me.. His friends and all are much more important to him than me.. If u were to ask me, i am scared to lose him but yet i guess to some extend, losing him has no long been a subject to me..

The driving force i had may be gone.. I dunno.. It sorta no longer important to me liao lor.. Haiz.. Well anyway, last night, bought a pair of leather converse shoes.. so nice.. hahaha.. i think tis month i really got some stuff man..

I got my shoe bag, my black bag, my towels, my vitamins, my shoes, and plus wat my friend got my an LV wallet, place model and adidas shorts.. hehe.. Think next month would get clothes.. haha.. 20 more days and im flying off..

Oh yea my project, Sonia and i would be doin it alone.. hha cool our much wanted dream.. Then we are thinking how marketing Sentosa and boosting its tourism visits... haha.. kinda hard but its a challenge.. thus far im having some ideas.. would be doin some brian storming on monday over breakfast and @ mac.. haha..

Kinda gd lor.. Submission of the proposal was suppose to be 23rd.. the day im flying off.. but then i sorta gave teacher tis look so she changed it to the 21st.. so kinda glad.. haha.. abt 20 days or so lor.. haha.. so happy.. I mean its like i can fly and enjoy without having to worry abt the project..

I jus realised tat 2nd, was a holiday.. Called mummy to tell her.. So asked her to change our arrival date to 2nd night.. then 3rd, the next day then go work and sch for me.. hehe... its a tradition i have been doin.. come back a day b4 sch starts.. hehe..

Well so yea.. tat was like my week for me lor.. later im goin out to collect mummy's Rain's cd then dunno where to go le so sian.. But i onli know i have to be back early so yea.. cos i have my duty for the marathon tomorrow.. haiz no transport so i have to go alone.. shit man.. haha..

Think ill end here le.. will write more in abt 25hrs time.. toddles.

Missing my kor kor..

Tis morning, wen i woke up, i somehow missed my kor kor alot i dunno y.. the last time i met him was erm exactly a month back.. Goodness.. I jus miss my kor kor alot.. And yet im getting cold shoulders.. for wat reason, i dunno.. Wenever i ask, its considered probing.. haiz i dunno lah.. Im jus frustrated sometimes.. I mean i wonder does he know how much (my kor kor) is in my life..

In any case, i wen to sch like at 0740 tis morning wen my sch starts at 1300.. due to SC (Student Council) commitments, i can onli start late 1 day so i start late on monday.. After assembly, Wen jogging.. Did like 5 rounds.. hahah.. Went to the stadium to jog..

I felt very good and refreshing but of course tired cos i havent done it for a long time.. Had a shower after my jog and returned to sch.. Slacked and chilled out and later wen to J8 to grab lunch and buy mummy's CD.. Well both she and i are like so into Jay Chou's latest album.

There are some songs in his album tat are nice.. Thing is wen i listen to it, there is a few tracks wen i listen, ill start tearing.. haha.. Oh yea later after tat, wen back to sch and all.. Man i tell u i guess im not used to it and i did push myself and didnt limit myself, i was really tired.. haha

I sorta slp in the access room while checking something.. hahah and later headed for lessons.. the good thing is, everytime, during AOA, ill have shoulder and muscle aches due to the stress while typing.. However, today, wen i was typing, the stress level wasnt tat bad..

Unfortunetly, it came at the cos of my tiredness.. hahah but it was very beneficial... hahah.. Well Rajes, said tat tomorrow (Wednesday), we would be critisizing pple's typing and all so tat we wont repeat tat mistake and in JC, they have tat too.. its kinda cool.. hehe..

Well came home tired so i think im goin to hit the sack now.. miss my bed.. haha toddles. Oh yea well jus had a tiff wif kor kor.. He said i keep thinking too much.. I jus don wan to talk abt it.. Jenson a very gd friend, is leaving and well lets jus say im really tired lor.. haiz

Flip Flop day

Tis morning, i had to go to church however, i didnt.. I did wake up and was woken up by a call.. From someone at work.. One of my officer's one of those whom i dislike working cos he is lazy and busy flirting arnd.. So yea was awaken by his call..

I didnt know who called so i returned the call to find out tat he called.. oh man i regret returning the call man.. Lucky i was in a daze so i said i was busy and couldnt come to work cos i believe they were short handed today.. but i cant be bothered..

I stirred up some lies and i was like.. Sunday morning n im not goin to church and tis is my first lie of the day.. Goodnes.. haha.. Wen back to slp.. Later wen i woke up, i received an sms frm Liwei, saying tat we would meet at 2pm at Pasir Ris MRT Station.

We were meetin to go to the World of Sports sale at DownTown East.. Apparently, i was the first to arrive.. Wen i went to the World of Sports, i was stunned cos everything there was snapped up.. The shop was quite empty..

Called Liwei and i told her tat the shop sorta is kinda empty.. haha i shld have taken a pic of it man.. there were lots of Teva slippers though.. haha Finally they arrived wen they saw the shop, they themselves where shocked..

They wen to like look at the shoes while i wen to look at the slippers.. I decided to get 3 pairs of slippers.. 1 Teva at $15 and 2 pairs of TYR at $6 eat.. tis prices were after the 50% discount so u do the maths urself.. Ended up paying $26 for it.. so yea

Wen home and yea.. haha now i have switch and rotate and can suit my mood.. haha well kinda glad and no regrets.. now i have to jus get my sneakers.. Came home settled some stuff.. later cleaned my drawer and now i have some extra space in my drawer..

Ironed my uniform and well the toilet light blew.. Gotta get a new one tomrrow.. so yea.. Well am starting sch at one tats y im still not in bed and bloggin instead.. Well goin to end here.. toddles.. haha

My Eventful Tuesday and Friday.. Jetstar Asia??

Sch tis week was quite ok.. However, it was raining non-stop.. Heavenly weather and lovely temperature.. haha well tuesday, i skipped sch cos i wen for this Harmony Works! conference.. it was so beneficial we talked abt stuff abt racism and all openly and it was nice..

However, i didnt ask questions cos was for ministers and not the speakers cos they were ministers and all.. so yea.. Well i wen home benefitting frm it lor so yea. They gave us tis book entitle " Skin Deep" too.. cool book to read..

Have started reading on while on my wah to sch.. hehehe

Yday (Friday), as usual, had to wake up at 5am. As usual, i would start moaning cos i dread the process of it.. haha.. Then wen i woke i looked out the window.. and i did look like it was going to rain so yea.. wen i entered the toilet, there was thunder..

The moment i switched on the shower, it started to rain.. Terrible man.. i had to bring umbrella.. and i hate to carry the umbrella.. i hate it so so much.. Wen to change and all.. Left the house after i was done..

On the way to the interchange, it sorta seemed tat it was drizzling.. Wen i got on the train, it stopped raining!!! Dam it!! Wen i reached sch, i was so annoyed cos it wasnt raining..

To add on to the misery of carrying an umbrella, i was wearing a new shoe... Apparently it was big but could fit.. haha and i was also wearing a wrong pair of socks.. dam it man.. And bcos of the shoes, i walked like i jus got "Fu*ked" hahaha cos i had blisters.. pain sia!!

Sch was 4hrs without break and first 2hrs was wif Rajes (my AOA teacher) where we did typing.. haha She was late.. so we did typing.. pretending to be gd students.. haha of course i had other programmes running.. hahah
I do like Rajes's lesson though its very stressfull.. hahaha.. After her 2hrs, we had POM and the teacher did come (Ms Lee) tat meant free lesson. Eric Chua came to relief our class. haha like him man.. he is like the GTO in my sch.. tat gd.

I think in some ways. im like him too.. hahaha.. Like the interaction wif him cool guy.. Well we had to like have grps for our Marketing projects so sorta grouped outselves... some were happy wif their group while some werent.. hahah

After sch, had to go to the airport for my interview.. something tat i have been pending.. Managed to go for it. My friend forgot to bring my papers so yea had to like make do without it.. Later after tat, i filled up some forms..

Was told i was selected to go for the second interview wif the ground handling agent (SATS) now tis is something very new to me.. Later i learned tat im posted to be incharge of Jetstar Asia.. My facial expression changed..

Firstly, i knew i had wat it takes but they wanted full time but i can onli do part time secondly, Jetstar had something against SQ. For the ladies, u cant bun ur hair like how SQ does it but u still have to bun ur hair.. (Something a friend told me)

So yea i wen told the Manager or watever it was i don wan to join Jetstar and he said nvm jus go for the second selection.. I reluctantly went. Wen i saw the crowd, i so shocked.. All the girls (i was the onli guy..)

The other girls had no standard.. Couldnt speak english, couldnt dress.. n tis is kinda racist but some were like mina wannabes.. hahaha.. In any case, wen for the interview. We met the Airlines Relations Manager and he was frm T2 and i met him b4.. He was frm T1 and came to T2

Bcos of the stress cos too many cases and all he couldnt take it so he went back to T1 and now he is the Airlines Relations Manager.. haha.. So yea he gave us the whole " Where Jetstar came frm theory" i was rolling my eyes thru his "lecture" and the others were paying attention but not much attention.. haha

He was telling us stuff i already knew maybe bcos i know so yea.. for their benefit lah.. Then he brought in the planes models and i was so engrossed in them.. haha i was paying more attention to the plane models then to him talking..

Soon the interview began and everyone tat wen in, came out within 3 mins.. I was the last.. Then it was my turn.. Wen in.. The first thing he commented was " Sherwin.. U are the first CHINESE guy.." I looked at him at inside i was saying " like u arent.. " haha

So i sat dwn and he asked where i was studing now etc etc.. N bcos during his "lecture", he made us ask questions, i asked him if our job, requires us to do stuff for the crew like wat im doin now in t2.

He got stunned and so he knew wat i was asking and all.. later he talked abt my sch and he said he couldnt take me in but he wants to put me on the standby list whereby if he needs me, he would call me cos he wanted me to do airlines like Qantas and the whole Qantas family (AO, QF, VF, 3K) and BA too..

I looked at him and asked him "So am i in or not?" He said " Ill put u on "standby" then i told him off.. hahaha.. I said "id rather get a firm answer now then to sit and wait doin nothing." He said on perk days we need people" and whole bunch of crap.

I asked him so im not selected bcos of sch n bcos i cant sacrifice 3weeks for training.. he said i fit the bill very well but yes on grounds bcos i had sch. Then i asked him SQ, MI operate the same planes QF n 3K, n VF is operating.. I mean minus the systems i think the rest are the same.. And i expressed tat 3K is jus an LCC not a full fledged airline where im beggin to go to so it doesnt really matter to me.. Cos he made me read tis sicking boarding annoucement which the other girls didnt do.. i was able to do it though..

He got shocked and i said " thank you n i left" hahaha and wen i came out the girls all looked at me.. I was smiling all the way.. haha.. I called the manager or watever it was to see the Airlines Relations Manager cos he wanted to see him..

Wen the results were announced, few got in.. onli few married ones.. hahah.. I burst out into laughter and everyone was looking at me.. We were told tat we would be posted to jobs in T2.. i was so happy and glad.. i was rejoicing.. hahah..

Kinda glad tat im not in or working for Budget Airlines or LCCs.. But the 3K staff were nice.. Well i think they wan to be better then SQ.. Tat i have to admit cos its very obvious.. so yea.. Headed home later and i was so tired plus the blisters were killing me..

Had dinner and all later watched my Jewel in the Palace.. haha.. wen to shower and off to bed.. Woke up tis morning n i was so tired.. haha feel like goin out later but well see how later.. well toddles for now.. cheerios

Back to School

Tis morning, i woke up at my usual unearthly timing i always do during sch days.. haiz.. so stoned and like a zombie... hehe.. Headed to the toilet and did my usual stuff.. Later, preped up and left for school.. The bus was kinda late.. haha..

Wen i reached the interchange, i sorta made haste.. Then later, i dashed.. hahah i dunno y i was rushing for the first time.. Alighted at Tanah Merah and then took a train tat was empty.. haha i mean well i had a seat lah so yea.. Headed to sch..

The moment i reached the train station, everyone was like walking as if there was some kind of funeral.. hahaha.. everyone was like walking so slow.. terrible.. Of course i jus walk lah.. but alot of people said i walk very fast.. maybe worked in the airport so its already there lor.. pick up speed from there.. Wen i arrived sch, i mean it was drizzling wen i was on the way to school.. so yea..

Wen i reached school, i was feeling so uneasy.. haha i think i jus don wan to be in school yet.. so yea... Wen to the toilet and then after tat, wen into the sc room.. so pack man.. so i left the room and i wen to wait along the corridoor..

Then saw like 2 of my juniors and then we wen to lower the flag.. haha.. Later, had our usual Morning Briefing.. haha... While the President was talking, i sorta was talking.. And he announced my name and i wen "First day of sch and im wanted.. wat did i do tis time" ... haha

Went to see him and then it was regarding the talk i was asked to go during the holidays.. As in i got a call and asked if i could go so yea.. well its tis Harmony Work! Conference 2005 - "Regardless of Race, Language or Religion" at Jurong JC.. live in Tampines but have to go all the way Lakeside..

Im in tis grp where the topic is "To speak or not to speak" which is abt how far our freedom of speech stretch.. Kinda ok lah.. Well jus go lor.. will skip school the whole of tomorrow.. oh yea well anyway after tat, wen to the audi cos Mrs Heng wanted to talk to us..

Fizah, Yanti, Sonia and i were talking our way while Heng was talking to us.. THen she mentioned Ada's name and i was like saying "NOT HERE" so loud.. everyone looked at me.. haha... I tell u i was blushing.. hahaha.. I onli paid attention to her wen she touched on our time table and new form teacher..

We had Ms Lee.. OUr KDS teacher last sem.. I didnt like her cos she was experienceless and then also, tis sem we would have onli 2 subjects and 1 is examinable.. have Advance Office Application (AOA), and Marketing.. so yea.. haiz..

Heng dismissed us and we wen to clean our class.. Ms Lee asked the councillors to organize the class and i was too lazy to do it.. so i got mary to do it.. mary too was lazy so yea.. haha.. I had my ALs and stuff to settle for tomorrow.. so yea.. Was running arnd.. and the class was saying i didnt clean n escaped.. haha

Had no choice.. So later after tat, after we cleaned the classroom and stuff, Ms Lee well can say she expressed displeasure abt her becoming our FOrm Teacher so i would say the feeling was mutuall.. so yea.. haha.. We left after tat..

Wen to like J8 after tat to buy my diary for sch and then bought like the Basic n Advance Theory for Driving i dunno y too.. then after tat, ball and liwei called me to ask me to join them for breakfast.. Initially, i didnt wan to but then later after tat, i went..

Later we went home and then after tat, i dozed off.. think i was too tired.. haha.. n here im am now blogging.. later goin to do my diary for school.. then tomorrow gotta go for my tat Conference thingy.. well think ill end here.. toddles. cheerios

In the toilet still can pose.. haha.. 9V-SBE.. Silk Air's A319.. hehe.. kinda small toilet but still can take pics.. haha ;p 

Toilet of 9V-SBE.. hehehe.. seating on the toilet bowl.. haha.. sickening rite? Wasnt shitting but waitin for the crew.. haha 

The First Class Seat of i think 9V-SRE?? Well i don like tis seat i mean the way it looks.. not nice lor.. but well its first class.. haha 

My Last Week of Holiday B4 School Next Week

Friday was my last day at work. For the Past 3 weeks since 31 November, i have been working even during Deepavali and Hari Raya.. Terrible rite? I mean others as in my other classmates where all enjoying themselves cos it was public holiday but i still had to work though i did enjoy myself so yea..

Friday was like my last day so yea.. hehe.. WAs so busy and tired to blog leaving today to blog.. My shift were like quite stable onli on some days.. the standard was like 1530-1930. Of course last min i do get extended as in i would be asking if i wan to be extended.. well no harm so yea y not.. haha..

Till like tis week.. Had to have tis understudy wif me.. I feel very uncomfortable cos its been quite sometimes since i actually had to conduct understudy and all.. So yea.. hahah i was very reluctant and i had to change the mindset of the person..

She had tis "i cannot do it attitude". Tat was somethig i had to change.. It was something i dislike. After changin tat mindset of her's, onli then, was i able to get on to the real work.. It was very hard cos i don think she understood the importance of the job..

However, i was glad given the last few days, i was able to help lah.. so yea.. After which work for me was quite ok for me.. Well minus all the terrible pple i had to work wif like Mavis and all.. She was one i didnt like and i cant stand her..

Other then tat, i saw few crew who got promoted in their uniform.. so cool!! At least could see them haha.. then after tat, Yday i didnt work.. Wan to go out wif kor but he wen out wif his friends.. for me, i wen for my SCSM (Standard Chartered Singapore Marathon) briefing at SSC later, wen up for lunch wif a friend and then headed home.

Visited my grandmother later and tot of bringin Russell over but then thinking of putting him in a cab was a hassel.. so i dropped the idea.. Wen there till like 10 and them headed up and met up wif a friend again and then wen to grab supper and see planes.. haha

Came back and watched cradle 2 the grave and then later dozed off haha till like tis afternoon say abt 12?? haha.. here i am now blogging.. Am suppose to go to church but then now. haiz.. Next week i have to make it a point liao...

Think ill write the rest later.. Oh yea.. tat day took some pics of my in the toilet of Silk Air's new A319's toilet. (9V-SBE) and the First Class Seat of my SQ118.. hehe.. enjoy e pics.. haha.. toddles

Quick Day at work...

Was kinda late for work today.. Took a cab.. Really had no choice.. Checked my account to see if my allowance was in.. Can u imagine, no money being put in yet.. im quite pissed abt it.. Well didnt have much time lor.. Jus withdrew the money and then grabbed a cab to work..

Reached work like exactly 1530 sharp.. Wen to office.. Was sending flt wif Rodney.. I was very dwn still so i was very silent thru my course of work.. I was so so silent.. Jus talk wen i had to other then tat, the smile was jus there..

Didnt really smile much too.. But had to maintain gd customer service and had to maintain composure.. so yea.. I was cheered up wen i did my SQ116.. The IFS asked me y i was early and not late so i told him cos im not late..

The LSS signaled the LS and few other few to where i was standing.. And she asked me how old i was and stuff.. Then they said i was underaged to work there.. n i said i was 19 all said i was lying.. They were all practically hitting on me.. haha.. I had to admit i was blushing.. haha

The LSS asked in a well act fiece tone.. "Y u wan to work here?? can see girls rite??" then the IFS said " got to mark him.. remember tis name(reading out my full name)" and the other crew all smiled at me.. haha terrible man.. but fun lah i mean it put a smile on my face.. haha

After tat i left and wen abt my stuff.. Later after tat, Mavis came and i had to walk.. ok lah 4 flts onli so simple.. chicken feet.. normally after my work, ill slack arnd n chill.. However, i left like after i did SQ118.. Still kinda dwn.. dunno lah i jus don wan to lose my kor kor at all..

Tomorrow have interview wif the new department and all.. Kinda ok lah.. wan to go over so yea.. well think ill end here..

A380 contacting frm ground with capt  

A380 Waitin for docking sequence 

Waiting to get permission for Aerobridge to dock to the A380!! 

Front View of A380 Rolling into F31 

Rollin into F31