Im Not Stupid too.. Am I or am i Not?

Wen i was young, i was the like most hopeless one in the family.. Failing non-stop since i was in Kindergaten.. Well even if i did pass, it wasnt fantastic... It was always not up to expectations.. I was canned for using my left hand to write..

Everyday i had to sit and practice writing wif my right hand but in e end i wrote wif my left hand.. haha.. After tat i was in well a neighbourhood sch tat well was later quite well known.. i was in P1.11 in Primary 1, 2.11, 3.11, and 4.11. I was always in the 11th class from Primary 1 till 4..

In Primary 4, it was my streaming year. It would mean i could choose to go EM1, EM2, and EM3.. We would get a result slip saying which EM we would go to as in our recommended EM by the school.. For obvious reasons i couldnt get to EM1.. EM2 was the best i could go to..

My mum picked EM3 for me and i remained in EM3.. i was quite comfy there.. i was amongest one of the smartest in EM3 and i topped the class in ENG onli.. maths was climbing and other subjects were gd..

I was very happy wif my escalating results but had to tell myself tat i shld be getting such marks cos im in EM3 and i shld do better.. I was class monitor and i had everything coming to me.. it was the time of my life i guess.. haha

In P5, I was in 5.12 and P6 6.12.. and was the monitor for 2 yrs running.. haha.. Later the PSLE came.. and i had to pick my 6 schools.. First choice was Ngee Ann, and i cant really remember.. However wen i had to pick my school's everyone in the family was mocking at me..

My mum was wif me however she didnt make the choice for me.. she said " choose wisely and make sure u don regret" and well tats wat i did... amidst all the mockery i wen thru, i still wen ahead wif it.. i didnt care.. it was either i land into somewhere where i would be a devious shittifyin gangster or land somewhere i can study and be an angel to some extend..

Eventually the much awaited day came.. the new announced that the PSLE results would be released wen and wat time.. so i wen to sch.. i still remember all the kids had their parents wif them to share the joy wif them.. I was one of the few who didnt have my parent wif me..

I took my results and my friends who said wanted to go out wen out else where wif others.. I wen to buy some stuff to eat and of course i bought for KC too.. he was there to share my joy wif me.. I remembered wen i left, i said " KC give kor kor gd luck k? tat i get gd grades" i thank God for tat too..

Wen i got my results i was happen.. i had a 1 for Eng, 2 for Maths and 3 for Chinese.. guess the hard work didnt go to waste.. Later we were told to go back another day to get our results for our enrolment for our secondary sch.. tat was another battle wont.. I returned to the sch on the specified date.. and i got the sch i wanted.. Ngee Ann Secondary.. haha

Wen i got my results i wen to find my other teachers and one of e teachers well he wasnt teaching me but he was nice.. he was Mr Poon.. nice person.. he congratulated me.. haha and well i shared the joy wif everyone and well my mum was hapy for me and i believe she was proud of me ba..

Hmm after my Secondary education, i wen in to my much wanted COS (Certificate in Office Skills/Studies) and it was a yr.. everyone headed for 2yr couses and mine was a risk taking course.. meaning if i failed i had to enter NS..

Later i managed to enter for my Higher NITEC in Business Admins where i am now.. and im thankful..

U would be wondering y im writting all tis.. well last night i was watching "I Not Stupid Too" and the story was so realistic its like u can understand and feel the character especially the kids.. i mean how they are treated by their parents..

There were too busy for their kids and all they tot is tat by scolding the kids and canning them, it would solved the problem however they fail to understand that its the bonding tat isnt there and tats wat the kids needs...

Some are brought up in a violent family environment.. some have burning questions like where do babies come frm and yet the answer they get is “u will find out wen u grow up" and when they make a mistake, they get scolded and canned..

In our pragmatic Singapore, tats life the way of life.. I mean of course the part where wen parents scold, we can jus sit and shut up.. I mean now most of us would jus voice out cos we arent in the wrong..

We the adults scold us, we have to shut up and wen we talk, we get scolded for opening and wen we tell the truth, we get scolded for lying.. Tats was how i was brought up wen i was very young however later i voiced out..

I was and still am an intervant but many a times i behave like an extrovant to cover my dark side.. Hmm yday wen i was watching the movie, there were scenes where i wanted to cry cos it was touching but then thinking of the family i have , its like crying wont work cos its isnt happening to my family..

The family i once had, died wen my parents got divorced.. nothing new to me.. its kinda numb.. though my house isnt tat dead but well to some extend, sometimes my mother doesnt really talk to me unless she wants to talk to me.. wen she is at work she'd talk to me wen she is at home im a pest to her..

Guess tats life in singapore for a typical family.. hmm funny.. sometimes i wonder how come we cant get wat we wan.. i mean asidfe from monetary stuff, y not e family love we all want? y cant things be perfect?

haiz dunno lah..