Mood: Numb, near moodless and emotionless, and Guilty
Time: 1115 hrs
Day: Wednesday
Countdwn to holiday: 2 days
Last week was filled up tons of ups and dwns.. Been quite bad.. However, glad tat Grace was arnd.. She too was under the weather.. Kinda interesting how people react to things in life sometimes. I mean its like i can be sad at one moment but wen i have friends who are dwn. they are my top priority.
I guess tats jus me.. Once, someone asked me would i sacrifice myself to help a friend, well i did.. Thinking back, though we arent friends much less in contact, i still had no regrets.. well maybe bcos i lost a friend but tats all..
Grace and i too have been in and out of stuff.. We would be in contact for a period of time and once we are busy, we get so busy that we fail to make it a point to contact one another.. And this would result to us ending up quarreling.
I mean our relationship is a big question mark.. Friends? BF/GF? God-siblings?? Hmm well lets jus say its a fusion of all 3... We are close friends, well we did consider having a part-time relationship (no sex involved) and well god-siblings kinda started since she officially joined SQ after leaving MI.
Really do miss her.. Guess thats y most of the time, i dont mind getting hurt by her much less being there for her when she is dwn even if im down and out. I kinda do miss the days wen i met her on flights and having my friends to tease us wen they see both of us on e flight.
Could still remember the time she did NRT-LAX and i was in MI544 looking at her plane crying... kinda comical.. hehe..
Anyway tats besides the point. Recently, Grace and i were back in contact well not tat we havent been in contact just that we havent met for abt a yr.. All communication was thru telecommunication.. tats all..
Both of us know tat we miss one another and im not denying the fact that we might get into another relationship that i might say would lead us getting hurt. But who cares.. options are open.
Hmm having my ITE graduation ceremony soon.. But no one is coming.. I mean i tot of calling grace long but well she will be doin FRA-JFK.. So sad.. Mummy would also be busy.. She wants to come but she is kinda busy so told her it was ok.. can go alone like i always have been for e last few years.
Holidays are also starting soon and this week, have been waking up at 0530-0545 instead of my usual 0500... And catching my magic school bus tat sends me to sch within 30mins. I would be late wen i leave my house but 168 gets me to Woodlands within 30mins thus the name Magic School Bus.
Kinda like it.. i mean yea 30mins would mean i might have to stand at times and also having a quick nap while e bus cruises thru TPE... hehe.. I have to admit, as much as im enjoying my nap and tat its fast, but i kinda get cranky wen i wake up to alight the bus.. hehe lets jus say that its a habit since a kid..;)
Im kinda side tracking.. anyway yea.. recently well its been abt a month i guess, lots of unhappiness in my life but im kinda amazed at how i can sometimes pretend nothing is happening amidst all tis.. Of course at e end of the day ill be sad and so on but well i guess im too used to this so much so tat im getting used to it and accepting e fact tat its becoming part of me.
Been trying to run from all my problems and not thinking too much into it and get super tied dwn with IGs and so on. Though i cant run away from it for long, but well i don wan to talk abt it at e moment lah..
Orh yes.. kor's friend jus got me a pair of sandals for hmm working hard and getting into a poly and well since im in race kayaking, it would come in useful on training days since one of my other sandals is well giving way and its not in e trash can..
Hmm having training later after school.. Hope i don cap today.. haha lets jus say i freak out wen i cap wen e sun is setting cos its kinda scary.. I wouldnt say tat im happy but lets jus say im happy with wat im doin.
Yday wen out wif Mummy and well bought some stuff.. and yea i got a new wallet and my shampoo etc.. Now kinda more or less have wat i need or have e money to get wat i need.. jus need to go get them... hehe..
Break is coming soon and cant wait.. lots of stuff.. Would be goin for trainning.. kinda mind dead at the moment..
Blog another day.
Weather: Normal
Mood: Numb, near moodless and emotionless
Time: 1128hrs
Day: Thursday
Countdwn to holiday: 1 days
Its thursday and well Friday is coming.. So near yet so long.. But well the long wait kinda payin off.. hehe. Ending my lesson with Cognitive so its quite a fun sunject.. hehe.. Good way to end my week.. Cant wait for the long wait too.. hehe.. As depressed as i am, im quite cheeky for some reason.
Recently my magic school bus kinda annoying.. some days u have seats, some days u have to stand. today i had to stand and man i was so tired.. So shitty.. I was slping while standing and well kinda moved and well some pple got annoyed but some were amazed tat i was sleeping while standing.. hehe
Reached woodlands and man i was tired.. I was well prepared to wan to go back.. i didnt care for once wat my grade was.. Initially i was contemplating on whether to go to sch today cos i was tired and my left sheen and calf muscle was pain..
However i had Science UT today.. Well it was evident i would fail cos today was Physics and bio.. which i hated to much cos its onli abt blood and density of blood and of course pressure.. RP's all time fav.. yucks man
I of course would fail but hey don try wont know cos i might score if i have to reason the theories.. so yea.. wen and well had to do on paper and well ill fail.. hehe.. know e result b4 its out.. so yea..
Lesson was oklah.. today VB (Visual Basics) and well have to make e box move.. For the pass month, we have been learning abt VB.. quite ok ok lah but need to remember codes which im not gd at
Well anyway i was like e leader today.. quite erm well didnt like it lah.. cos i didnt really like my grp but kinda ok wif them cos the communication is there.. After my breakout, i emailed my teacher asking if i can go home.. saying i had rhumatism which i think i had.. cos e leg was pain.
Left and took a bus home.. Reached home, i ate and napped till abt 8 and well mingled online chatting and stuff.. Chris gave me some SQ audios which he extracted from the vid and its not a ringtone for me.. hehe..
Gotta go prep for tomorow.. end..
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