WAT DID I DO WRONG?

For e last few days i have been smsing Grace asking her wat have i done wrong. She didnt reply to my messaged. Tis morning i left my hp in e SC room and then erm someone help me took it. Seriously am depressed.

Initially i was depressed bcos of IOC. WAs kinda sad cos no one was there to back me up wen i was dwn. However, now im depressed bcos im so involved tat i don wan it to end. Seriously i don think i can have Grace anymore cos as wat i was told, i was not sincere.

Somehow i don think i have anything to look forward and cling on to. Once IOC, NDP, and Student Seminar ends respectively, i have nothing in hand and i dunno wat to do. :( Well wat e heck lah. Tats life n i think i jus have to brace it. To Grace: Im sorry.

Anyway today in class, i was like sitting rite at e back of the class.. Mrs Yeo my ADN teacher was like had tis attitude. Fact was i was paying attention but reason to why i didnt wan to sit in front was bcos most of them were sitting in front n gossiping away.

After e lesson, Mrs Yeo asked Sonia n i to stay back cos she wanted to talk to us. Straight away immediately, i told her to her face n i guess she wasnt able to take e facts but she remained calm and rattled on. Sonia was like explaining to her.

Seriously at tat time i didnt give a f*cking dam. I didnt care. Today i was not rostered for IOC duty. Cos i had NDP practice. it was fun. I guess today my NDP practice was like the onli thing tat perked me up and made my day lor.

On our way to e padang, we passed Swissotel The Stamford. Security there was freakin tight. Somehow i felt very proud wen i was like looking at e whole place. And yes i was like wishing i could go n do duty. But yea.. hehehe.. O yea anyway practice was fun lah as usual.

Do look forward to every practice enthusiatically.. Everything ended like at 8plus lor.. So we took e bus provided back to Simei campus. I was practically slping in e bus like i was on a bed cos e chair was retractable. so yea. On e way home, had TV Mobile on the bus n found out tat a bomb blastered in London.

Jus a day after IOC results were released, somethin like tis happens. Well leave it to God... Came back n rested n tired. Sat is my first NDP NE Show.. so excited. hehe Well indeed i am having a mask to cover my dark facade.

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