Life Being Single

Hmm thus far, life being alone, has been gd. Life the feeling though there are times u feel very lonely.. Tats wen pple always tell me to go exercise.. thing is at nights, i jus find it creepy.. haha.. But like to jog etc.. Jus tat no time. well tats jus an excuse..

Tomorrow wen i come back frm sch intend to walk back frm Pasir Ris.. Enjoy the walk back.. Jus tat i always take the bus cos i can have additional slping time. BUt well i guess i have to somehow adjust to my workout routine n get my lifestyle back on track..

Jus read my friend's blog and read how hapy he was wif his bf.. Yes u got tat rite.. bf.. He is gay.. Thing is he is actually younger then me.. N wen we first met, somehow he said he loved me blah blah blah.. But then at tat time he wasnt attached n i wasnt in for such stints..

I mean even if i were to have something of tat sort, it would jus be a stint to shock pple.. So he asked if he could be my korkor.. N i found it kinda odd.. Firstly someone younger then u wants to be ur older godbro
n secondly i jus am not used to it..

Im not one who is gd in rejecting pple.. tats me.. Jus yea jus said ok ill be his didi.. he was happy n could tell at home happy he was.. I have to admit tat the process was kinda fun.. Its like u have someone to check on u etc.. Knowing how playful i am, i have to admit he really was very matured wif me.

However at the end of the day, u have to wake up frm all tis dreamy shit.. So yea.. Thru the stint, he had a new bf.. so yea i told him i didnt wan to go on cos i jus didnt feel comfy.. Its not tat i might be afraid tat i might be gay.. infact, frankly i think gays are the most caring bunch of pple.. If u get the rite one tat is..

So yea. At the end of the day i have to know tat im straight.. Maybe e feeling u get out of having a kor is jus to cover tat space others have tat u dont.. N tat is tat u have some fatherly love which others already have.. So yea.. I mean wen he was my "kor" i was really loved.. i have to admit tat..

But thru the process i guess like every other relationships, there will be quarrells etc.. i have to admit we did quarrel.. There were also times wen we did enjoy ur brotherly relationship.. LIke following me for a hair cut n all..

Tat was something i really enjoyed.. Well like i said such stuff do have to somehow end.. Jus like a dream in every slp.. I guess its high time i walk up n slap myself.. For obvious reasons tis would sound very gay.. But so long as i know my intentions, i think im cool... so yea.. hmm

so bored.. I noticed, everytime i read a blog, i jus have tis feeling.. Like u jus feel wat the person is writing.. hmm kinda lit.. hehe well i kinda love it.. haha.. well think tat would be all.. toddles.